Peace Angels

'I remember feeling heavy
the day i went to sleep
I remember...what do i remember?
You know the feeling
not sad or happy
sort of in the middle of nothing.
I had teachers now, teachers i could see
They told me you only existed in books
that real people knew better
than to believe in fantasy
And I believed them
I forgot you
I remember yearning
the dreams I had
the sleep wake existence
when I couldn't tell the difference
when everything was fine
no, really I'm fine
I'm just a little tired.
I was feeling empty
I don't know why
waiting for you to show yourself
to remind me that you are here
always
So I searched
seek and ye shall find.
I looked for you at the movies...
on the television...
in magazines and on walls....everywhere
but i could not find you.
Memory is like a strong computer chip.
We are all computers who hold
the memory banks of the universe
and if you search you will find
a snapshot, a glimmer, a little hint
of something greater than this.
And that is where i found you
laughing and smiling
playing peek-a-boo.
Oh I missed you so much.'

Extract from Peace Angels: Antoinette Sampson